Thursday, September 30, 2010

Trapped in a flesh prison

Okay so I missed Psychology class today which I'm really upset about. I actually really enjoy that class and due to my gay body I had to miss. My vision sometimes just goes away. Everything thats on the left side just kind of disappears and I can't see anything. Plus I have seizures and they are getting worse I think. I'll try to describe what its like.

It starts out as this creepy crawling feeling running up my spine and splintering off into my arms. My skin feels too small for my body, like its constricting  everything inside of me and I just need to break free. I can try to fight it off but it hurts and my strength starts to fade then I loose complete control and my body goes insane. Sometimes I'm aware of whats happening and I'll try to say something but nothing comes out. I've become a prisoner trapped inside of my own body. Sometimes though I'm gone and I black out and can't remember anything. Its a scary and hard problem to deal with. Preston is the one that usually helps me through and I'm so grateful for him.

On a lighter note, I'm pretty sure Yuffie is officially a druggie. She can't get enough of her pain meds haha. XD
Preston and Yuffie with her more shaved and stitched belly. Doesn't she just look so happy hehe

Wednesday, September 29, 2010


Okay so call me weird but I am definitely not one of those girls that loves shopping. I went with my younger sister today to the mall.....oh my. It was torture basically haha. I love hanging out with her but the whole shopping experience I can live without, unless of course I'm shopping for a car, videogames, or pet stuff. I never even try on clothes when I buy them. Nothing exciting really happened today accept I let Yuffie out of my room for the first time since her surgery and she went crazy hehe.

Alright well I think I'm gonna play some Halo Reach with Matt and maybe Preston.

P.S How have you guys been?

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Just life

So my little Yuffie *my kitten that just got spayed* is pretty much a champ haha. She couldn't even walk yesterday and when she tried to walk to her water bowl her back legs gave out and she just started to fall asleep, and today she is jumping around every where and attacking me like always. I doubt she even still needs her pain killers haha.

On another note, what do you think about relationships? As in boyfriend and girlfriend. I think it should just be between you two and you shouldn't let anyone influence it at all. But someone told me yesterday that basically your family should have a say in the matter which I think is just ridiculous. I'm not gonna let anyone tell me, family or not, who I can and can not date. I'm my own person and I should be allowed to make my own decisions.

Alright well I'm gonna add some pictures now. Enjoy =P

 This was me on Halloween of last year

 Preston cut and colored my hair =D

 Preston and I last fall. We have been together for almost 2yrs

 this is little monster haha named after Yuffie on Final Fantasy VII

 My koi tat, one of 4, it still needs touched up

Yuffie attacking the wii remote =P

Monday, September 27, 2010

College Life

Hm...where should I start? Well after being homeschooled since 4th grade and taking a year off after high school, I have finally started college. Nothing major, I'm just at a community college. Small yes, but it'll get me what I need with out having to pay back huge student loans for some University. As of now I'm taking English, Math, Psychology, and History of Western Art. I'd have to say Psychology is my favorite. Okay well enough about school. I'm still living with my mom and step-dad and having my boyfriend, Preston, stay with my through the week really helps with being here. Hmm...what else could I say for the first blog...oh I just took my kitten to the vet to get spayed...she is still doped up. Its sad...and the stupid vet jacked my bill up >_< oh well. Okay well I am going to go find something else to play Halo Reach or maybe finally I can play Left for Dead haha XD