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Thursday, September 30, 2010

Trapped in a flesh prison

Okay so I missed Psychology class today which I'm really upset about. I actually really enjoy that class and due to my gay body I had to miss. My vision sometimes just goes away. Everything thats on the left side just kind of disappears and I can't see anything. Plus I have seizures and they are getting worse I think. I'll try to describe what its like.

It starts out as this creepy crawling feeling running up my spine and splintering off into my arms. My skin feels too small for my body, like its constricting  everything inside of me and I just need to break free. I can try to fight it off but it hurts and my strength starts to fade then I loose complete control and my body goes insane. Sometimes I'm aware of whats happening and I'll try to say something but nothing comes out. I've become a prisoner trapped inside of my own body. Sometimes though I'm gone and I black out and can't remember anything. Its a scary and hard problem to deal with. Preston is the one that usually helps me through and I'm so grateful for him.

On a lighter note, I'm pretty sure Yuffie is officially a druggie. She can't get enough of her pain meds haha. XD
Preston and Yuffie with her more shaved and stitched belly. Doesn't she just look so happy hehe

18 comments:

  1. I like the way you designed your blog :)

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  2. Sounds like you"re pretty lucky to have Preston. :D

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  3. Psychology is a great class to have. I learned a lot from my Psych teacher.

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  4. Sorry to hear of your seizures. Do you have epilepsy?

    Your cat is cute though.

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  5. haha thanks all. My cat is definitely the shit, I hated cats before her.

    my psychology professor is amazing and I've already learned a lot from it

    and no, they don't know why I have seizures...ugh I might have to get studied on, meaning they are going to put me in a room and leave me there until I have a seizure grrr

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  6. trapped in a flesh prison sounds gross, lol

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  7. haha yeah its not pleasant XD

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